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happy updates of a two year old :(  yesterday was awful.  more crying for the both of us.  sophia reluctantly walked into her classroom crying but this time w/ blankie and "blabla" (her lovey) in her arms telling her teacher, "i want to hold you."  she wouldn't even look back at me which is probably best.  i left w/ soooo much guilt.  really, i just came home sat down on the couch and watched "the view".

whoopi's shoes were a nice distraction, lol

phone calls from my hubby and girlfriend to check on me were sweet...poor things just had to hear me sobbing on the phone!  after an hour t.v. and boo-hooing, i cleaned up and made good use of my time.  sophia of course was found playing and enjoying her time when i picked her up...until she saw me in which she started crying and running to me...nice to be missed, right?  i dread tomorrow morning, but i just know it will get better!

by the end of the day (8:00 p.m., lol) i was exhausted and decided to lie down on my bed...fell asleep.  i then wake up to my amazing husband washing dishes and cleaning the kitchen (after taking mucho and the girls for a walk, bathing them, and helping get them to bed...and exercising).  i tell him to stop...shower and relax!  he tells me, "don't worry about it, go relax or go to sleep."  knowing this man won't stop cleaning i smile and go to bed...9ish and loving it!  these last couple of weeks have been draaaaaining.  yes, it's the new schedule of waking up early and having a longer day, but i'm sooo emotional lately.  these changes and my little miss cryyyying...ugh!  listen, when i'm driving and i hear "lean on me" on the radio and i'm loving it, cracking up b/c it's so old school but yet, somehow trying to hold back tears!!??!!  this mama needs a break!

yesterday was...

"post 5th birthday party planning/throwing" hangover, lol!  and today was "i can't seem to catch up" day!  it's 9:20 p.m. and i want to be in bed...sleeping!  BUT i've been wanting to sit down in front of my computer and blog every day, too, and it just keeps getting pushed down the ever growing list of to-do's.

let's see...last week i wanted to tell you about how fun it was surprising my now 5 year old on her birthday (will post later), how not-fun it was to start my week w/ a dead battery and therefor resulting in my now kindergartener's first tardy (on the second week of school!!)  i then thought you all would think it amusing that after all the anxiety of taking sophia to children's day...i couldn't leave her at first b/c they didn't have her shot records which i had forgotten!  score 1 for mom-of-the-year.  i raced to the doc's office and recvd a letter stating she had been seen w/ in the last year and was up-to-date so i could take her back...and i did...

she loves the accessories school brings

how cute is that?

the teacher was giggling at me for taking this pic!

she absolutely LOVED IT!  and then there came the second day...we arrive early.  everything is cool.  her pal abigail shows up.  they're playing.  her teacher then tells me that piece of paper i gave them won't work today.  they need her shot records.  i say, "oh sure!  i'll pick them up today!"  as i totally meant to do in lieu of having a dead battery situation!  she says, "no, i mean you can't leave her here."  meanwhile, sophia has decided this whole children's day thing isn't such a great idea and is clinging to my leg...crying.  awesome.  so, i pick up my curly-haired crying little miss and race to the doc's office and grab those shot records.  i return w/ records in-hand.  sophia is crying.  she does NOT want to stay and does NOT want me to leave.  i hand her off and walk right outside the door where she can't see me just waiting for her to stop crying.  i start crying and a lady asks me if everything is okay (this doesn't help matters) and so i then go to the uncontrollable ugly cry.  i had to leave.  i left w/ such feeling of guilt.  i keep thinking she doesn't need to go to children's day.  i don't need her to go to children's day.  she doesn't NEED to go, and i don't NEED her to go, but it's GOOD for both of us.  she ended up having a good day and was playing when i arrived.

we will see what tomorrow will bring.  i'm not having warm fuzzies as we drove by there since then and she saw the building and immediately got upset :(

pray people!

i'll be back to share 5th birthday goodness :)  and hopefully happy updates of a 2 year old!